Hidden beauty

As I stared into her eyes, I could tell there was more of a story to give. More of a story to be told. This wasn’t the end of our friendship. It wasn’t the end of our journey. It was only beginning.

The story beneath that beauty was untold. She had more to give to the world. The world had more to give her – she just didn’t know it yet.

All those mistakes made, those memories created, adventures explored. It was all part of who she was, and who she would become. Life has often punished her, but yet, through all this pain, her beauty still shines through.

Sometimes we are simply not ready to control the beauty one has within their heart, and we have to feel pain before we can love who we are meant to love.

We often hurt those that mean the most to us while creating friendships with people we aren’t supposed to.

We all have a beautiful story to tell – go tell yours before it’s too late.

2019

2018 Started off weird for me as I didn’t have any expectations for the year and definitely for the future.

I became this robot where I was just accepting things in my life. How ever they came without making changes to fix the problems or mistakes when they presented them selves. I was on this down word Spiral of sadness, depression, I hated who I became I thought I had nothing to look forward to and nothing to worth living for.

I was lonely and sad in the worst ways on the outside I was the same person. I dressed, looked and even acted the same. But in the inside I was a completely different person and no one could see it specially those closest to me.

One day this fall something just clicked I can pin point a few people and events that inspired me or helped me make this change, a few people noticed, people that I haven’t talked to in years or never even talked to on a personal level noticed that I was screaming on the inside for help.

I spent the next 5 months internally cleaning my mental, emotional state it’s not where I want it to be fully yet. But the “hard drive” is almost reset.

For the first time in years I can say that I am looking forward to life. despite The sadness and challenges that it is going to create, it’s also going to create a whole web of happiness, hope. And most importantly it’s going to create a future. A future I always wanted.

Make Changes in 2019 so you can exceed your life expectations.

Wake up and smell “ The bacon of life”

We often wake up every morning with a routine of what we are going to do either for the next hour, for the day, even for the whole week.

We get caught up living the same lie. doing the same thing over and over again pretending we are happy . waking up, starting the car, driving the same route, working, getting off work, driving home, cooking, shower, bed.

Than we wake up the next morning and do it all again living the same lie again. One day we will have to face the facts, can I continue doing this? Am I happy enough to call this “my life” We need to be prepared to make the changes for the better of not only your life but the ones directly involved with you. Weather it be a child, partner, or even a best friend.

You can’t keep pretending that the boring and non productive life you are living makes you happy.

Make the changes in 2019 that are important, That will get you to where you should be. Or where you want to be.

Life floating in the clouds

I find beauty 12000ft in the sky where the layer of clouds covers the earth.

The sun is starting to set, The sky is glowing. As we travel away from what means the most in life to us. We have hope knowing that the help we need is in the horizon.

We often have to big of an ego or we are full of ourselves. Thinking we can do it alone, thinking we don’t need help when really we do. Everyone can see the struggle, the cry for help. But sometimes we can’t see it ourselves until it’s almost to late. When honestly that just makes you feel more alone and makes the problem worse.

We all have to admit to ourselves one day we need help that we can’t do it alone.

Do it.

We often take for granted the time we are given with people.

Weather it’s a friend or a family member. We push aside things – saying we can do it later.

what if we couldn’t? What if you had one chance to tell the person something or 1 chance to do something with that person. Would you do it or would you just think about it?

We need to following the dreams with have set in front of us and we need to tell people what we really need/want. The journey might be hard and the answer you get you might not like, But we can’t hold back and we can’t loose that chance we have.

What ever it is. Do it now.

Lost.

This is it. This is the end.

That was the only thing on his mind as he walked the fresh snowy trail. His footprints slowly disappearing from the slight wind as he walked further and further from town.

It was getting dark, the sun was setting and the moon was rising. As he walked, the glow of the moon peaked through the trees, giving him the only light in the forest.

His mind was still empty other than with that single sentence: “this is the end”.

He continued to walk until he was out of sight and far enough no one would hear him leave this life.

He was ready; he found a bush where he wouldn’t be found easy, and he sat there with not even one thought or care except this was it.

He crouched in the bush and put a bullet into the gun. He rose the barrel of the gun to his jaw, when suddenly he saw a flutter. A bird had landed directly in front of him, as if he was sparing his own life to save this man’s. As he started to squeeze the trigger, he took one last look at the bird. Suddenly, he lowered the gun down and took the bullet out.

There was meaning behind this incident: it provided an answer to the questions he had asked. It gave him a light to continue on. If an animal were willing to spare its life to save his, what kind of human would he be to still leave this world?

The walk back was a cold and lonely one. The feeling of embarrassment had passed through his mind, but he knew this was his second chance and he wasn’t going to disappoint…

Alone.

Have you ever been a room with another person that’s supposed to be there for you, but you still felt alone?

You can be in a room with as many people as you want, but if you can’t be with the person you want to be with, it doesn’t matter.

Make your life so you’re able to see the people that mean the most to you. Don’t be stuck trying to please someone that doesn’t even care about you.

We all deserve better than what we currently put up with.

CHANGE

You’re given 30 days to change your life for the better, and right of all the wrongs you’ve done.

Would you accept the challenge knowing it’s the right thing to do no matter how hard it will be?

Or would you give up like all the times before, and not work towards what already should have been?

Never give up on what you feel is right.

Never give up on the things you need.

No matter how hard; never give up.

There’s better things on the horizon…

Broken.

Life often finds ways to punish the most amazing people: illness, wrong timing, wasted time, questions not asked…

Sometimes these people are so broken from these events that they just give up and start floating. They push people away who they feel are important in their lives, but yet don’t acknowledge to themselves that those people want to be there for them.

All we can do is be there for them, and try to understand them and how they work. We can just hope they don’t float too far away…

Airports.

We often think a library or a bookstore has a lot of stories that people have written  about family, friends, dogs, travel, and even a week.

As I sit in the airport, the mind seems to wonder and think about one thing: how many people have stories of their own that the have never shared or never told anyone? As we continue to keep these events to ourselves in our lives, the stories continue to pile up. With every day, every week, and every event that happens – it writes our own stories.

Having the ability to know just one story or one event of a person’s life can really help you understand how they work and think.

I often find airports the lonlieist but yet least lonlieist places out there.